Five minute Friday - 5 minutes of writing, no editing or backtracking
Hah! I snorted, literally snorted, as I read the word for 5 minute Friday. Rest?! What's that?! I don't remember the last time I truly rested but it must have been about 3 years ago. Then the word left my vocabulary never to return. But that's ok. Who needs it? I get down time. No I don't. Not really. I get bits and pieces here and there. I get a little R&R at times. But I grab them in quick pinches, a handful if I'm lucky. Rest does not come easy. The body is tired, the mind knows there's more to do. There might be quiet at night, even peace, but knowing that at any time a voice may cry "MAMA!!", there's no true rest. I can't relax fully. Given my choices, I wouldn't want to. Rest or the voice of an almost three year old more precious than anything? Rest or laundry to be done and cooking to do? Rest or living? I'm comfortable with my lack of rest these days. The ice cold shock of never getting a moment to oneself has worn off. I'm comfortable with the moments I do grab. I wonder if I ever will rest again. I picture old age and a rocking chair. But then, hopefully, there will be grandchildren to watch over. Nope, no rest.